my life before mexico

Well today and everyday im reminded what a total miracle emma is.. when i see pictures of other children with her syndrome..alot have passed and some are fighthing for there lives.. emma was blessed i am so thankful for her health.. she may not walk or talk or eat.. but i would have that any day over her being seriously ill.. Please pray for lil recesse.. she is really ill and has a constant battle with life.. I wine and cry about my bills and life but nothing would be worse than having a sick child.. i seriously need to check on nicholas's nerves or what ever you want to call it.. he just has no sense of handling his emotions.. he goes from 1 to 10 in 1 second flat.. he will hit himself and just go crazy.. maybe hes seriously spoiled i just dont know.. i know it tears my nerves up..