Thursday, April 22, 2010

overwhelmed

You know somedays I handle my life really really well..somedays..most days I guess.. but this week..wow..am I over whelmed..I long for the normal life..

I am depressed..
My husband is bipolar/crazy..lol
Nick is asbergers/adhd and now being tested for an auditory processing disorder..plus he has my gene and will probably have an emanuel baby.
Emma emanuel syndrome, 1 ear, tube fed..

can we see why I'm stressed and depressed..

Today me and my big ole GENES are depressing me..I love my children more than life and sometimes it really bothers that my genes have done a number..I dont regret having them but today I want more for them.. I want them to be normal..

So today..I dream of mexico..no drs and specialist..daily just one normal freakin day..

Thursday, April 1, 2010

pics





just an update

So many changes for emmster this coming month.. we are transitioning to the real school.. emma will start on monday.. i'm happy but terrified..I know in my heart its what best for her.. I jsut hope they feed her right and put her on the potty..lol.. emma is loosing her therapist..shes moving on to bigger and better things..Its really tearing me up because she has become my friend in alot of ways, plus she was a kick ass therapist..

So new things with emma.... she got dafo's they are feet braces.. she got this suit called theratogs..which work great..BUT..have quit..its like putting on tree lights that are tangeled 10 times aday..so I quit.. emma is pinching and pulling hair and she throws a pretty awsome temper tantrum..she fully thows herself backwards..so its kind of good because it is considered milestones.. emma has discovered her tongue and she loves to stick it out.. she even likes to lick people..lol.. gross I know.. but at the same time its hilarious when she continuely licks you none stop.. shes just a charecter..she has 1 million facial expressions.. I wish I knew what they all meaned..

so here are some pics from her last day at her preschool for early intervention.. these ladies are great.. and the best thing is they all love my princess.. especially her clothes..lol..oops couldnt get the pics to download will do later..

MAKE A WISH

MAKE A WISH
Toes in the sand

Bahama's princess

Bahama's princess
make a wish 2013

GROWN UP

GROWN UP
MY BOY

i love u

i love u

Emma in the nicu

Emma in the nicu