Monday, July 27, 2009

nicks genetics are back...


Well I got nicks genetics test back and all is well with most of it.. but unfortunatly he does have a balanced translocation like me.. Can I just say I am so sad. I always dreamed of having kids, doing the normal adolesant things that they do, girlfriends boyfriends heartbreaks. now I may not even get grandchildren. I feel like a bad egg.. Why did this happen to me.. Dont get me wrong I LOVE MY KIDS MORE THAN MY LIFE.. but couldnt this have just skipped him. why can he just have a happy normal life. You know we dont have family not really everyone lives away. So one fear we have is who will take care of our children, especially emma will this fall to nick if he is old enough, now will nick have children or children like emma..doesnt he have enough to worry about than to have this now..so my moto for the day...BLA BLA BLA....PS SORRY FOR THE CUS WORDS BUT i NEEDED IT..

1 comment:

Deborah said...

Love and hugs to you Joy. Hard stuff, and I know nothing can make it better. Not fair. I don't understand it. I am praying for you and Little Mr Nick.

Can't get over how big they are getting.

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