Tuesday, November 3, 2009
So first off I lost my super women cape..I have been a sack think I need to go back to zoloft..or I hate driving or something. take nic to school then go 20 minutes to another town and either drop her off and come back 2 hours later or do therapies this is 4 days a week. plus nick was doing horse therapy for a month. which he really enjoyed thought he was the king..of riding.. he has been a handful.. I forgot to get his meds appt on thurs. so fri they dont do those appts so we were with out meds for like 5 days it was HORRIBLE..it was like watching someone come down off happy pills or something.. I really thought he lost his mind one morning we were at the car place getting my car fixed.. he was nuts.. came out of the bathroom with what appeared to be his tshirt and under wear.. I really went into a life before my eyes kind of moment..then quickly what the heck r thinking nick put your freakin pants on..he had his pants pulled all the way up so i couldnt see them..so my life has been fun..it was emmbarrasing and hillarious.
growing up I always thought when i have kids they are going to mind me, when I have kids i will loose all the weight..hmmm guess life is showing me know..
emma is doing great..still really no talking just her usuall yea..I wait for it but it doesnt come. I find it ironic that my favorite books of all time was hellen keller i read them all the time.. now i have a child like her in ways..
so we are getting ready to set up and plan for next year..school for emma.. I have to choose between two schools one with more money and a title or one with a very small class and a great teacher.. its going to be so hard to go to 2 schools. its going to be so hard to turn my life over to someone else. the what ifs will they feed her properly will they put her on the toilet..i'm gonna freak out when the time comes... shes not been doing so well in her walker she jsut wants to sit in it. if she wants to walk she wants you to be holding under her arms..princess..we had fun at halloween loved the pics of the kids..actually got to be a family day for us.. well emma has ear tube surgery on wed and an abr hearing test while shes sleepin. so pray it goes ok..