my lil sensitive child

lordy lordy.. my eye twitch is in full bloom today..I thought nick was feeling better to go back to school today.. but an hour of yelling i'm blind, my toothbrush is covered in hair (no there was no hair) my stupid pants etc etc.. I decided maybe he wasnt ready to go back to school today.. some days I really feel I could use a nerve pill.. so I'm attaching a pic he drew a couple weeks ago.. his other fish aka silvey died so i ran to walmart and got a new silvey...so now silvey will live forever or as long as walmart carries that color.. but with him being the dramatic sensitive child he is, i felt it was in all of our best interest..I never would have thought I would do that but if you had to here it you would too.. PS HE HUNG THIS OVER OUR TOILET

teachers, potty training

Ok first I would like to start out by saying errrrr.. thats to nicks teachers. I have discussed about nicholas and being forgetful, adhd has ahold of him alot, he cant concentrate half the time.. he doesnt hear half of what you say because yea HE IS NOT FOCUCED. any teacher that knows about adhd or asbergers all know that kids can not focus.. so every week a couple times a week.. I feel I get sculded by the teacher for not completing work..every day we do homework read books etc etc. At the 1st of the school year his teacher said he would only have 1 sheet aday.. he gets 3 alot.. is it my fault he cant remember to bring work home..its my responsibilty to do work at home..but shouldnt she be giving him a lil extra nudge to bring stuff home. i know he has to have accountability, but have the time hes not listening to her.. it just urks me.. like im a bad parent they way she comes to the car to tell me this with her lil smirk on her face..
ok secondly.. i got emma a potty chair not to potty train her but to let her butt air out..shes had a horrible but rash for weeks and im tired of digging poo from a towel.. but for 2 days now shes pooed like 4 times and peed several times.. she doesnt really know what shes doing, but shes doing it so im just gonna keep it up.. yea.. oh ps were does emma get her sleep face from..lol

I hate freakin diaper rashes

So emmas reflux study came back really good.. which i think is because we just switched her milk. her gas has gone down by like 75%.. but now she has a bleeding but rash.. we have tried 2 types of anitfungal creams not working so now im trying letting her just be naked.. she seems happy about it.. just laying there laughing.. I hope it works.. she is in so much pain.. plus i think shes getting another upper respritory infection again.. i wonder what causes that.. who knows.. I think Im gonna try maloxx on her but i dont know what else to do its been like 2 weeks..i'm thinking about getting her a lil potty chair so she can have somewhere to sit and air out, as im typing shes smacking her but and so happy.. I wish she could cruise the house how much airing out can you do when your sitting on a towel.. owell..

mexico is calling

I'm so dreaming of a long away life filled with joy and no worries... beaches sun shine happy happy days... why should some have so much and others struggle daily just to keep the electric on..OH mexico and a joyoous life think of me..

Well this week has gone pretty good.. considering emma has another ear infection and huge yeast infection from the antibiotics.. friday has a ph probe to see if shes refluxing again..not looking forward to that..we took the kids to the school so nic could try to ride a bike, no he still cant ride a bike.. I dont know if its fear or what but guess he will get it one day.. we took emma's gait trainer and man she had a ball she walked and walked for like 30 minutes people kept staring but owell I feel when they look they learn.. tonight I kind of got hit with a sad whammy.. nic said mom if i had one wish i wish emma would be normal like you and me, I mean how is she ever gonna get married.. I explain it to him, but I still dont think he gets the whole story.. it really broke my heart.. but she is true gift and we are blessed to have her..

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crazy people

This place is a lil crazy..They put high school kids on the bus and the younger kids have to walk or get a ride.. We were the only county to not get cancelled today.. so we get a tiny snow with a big burst of sun an they call school off at 11.. then its pure mayhem at the school.. they have no system down at that school which really freakin urks me.. theres lil kids getting in and out of cars every where walking in front of all the cars.. its just ridiculas how these people shuffle the kids in there..I tried to nicely suggest a way and this old lady bit my head off.. its not my fault..hmm...then they sent nic to the wrong side of the school..the poor kid is in a panic by the time he gets out. its only a matter of time before a kid gets run over or kidnapped or something.. plus theres a sexual offender that lives like 2 blocks from the school.. yea thats really freakin safe.. Personally i think a high school kid has more chance at protecting themself than some lil kid.. freakin rediculas.. ok on the good not nics meds are working most of the time..he has never liked to read at all.. nows hes reading like 2 to 3 books a day..amazing.. of course his fav. was a book about a boy seahorse that falls in love with 2 female seahorses and they live happily ever after.. what kind of book is that.. but thats my boy..still trying find emma a walker the one she has is really heavy.. bla bla bla..

another set back

Well I guess we've ran into another issue. Emma's therapist said that her swallow study showed her chewing abilities were absent. which means she may never learn to eat properly. she may have to always have a pureed diet.. I dont know the 1st thing about pureeing..I think i'm going to have to find a dietician to set up a meal plan.. this is like chinese i just dont know it.. I think she has another ear infection.. lot of good that damn ear tube did.. owell another day..

another week..

Well another week has come and gone.. Nicholas is doing great with his meds.. we are talking going from 2 hours on homework for the easiest of things to like 5 min. This medicine is a total miracle.. I just hope when he gets up'd that he doesnt quit eating.. I was seriously thinking of military school and driving him to wisconsin, is that the state you can just drop your kids off and not get into trouble.. that was a joke.. He is even holding his own art class at home for mom and dad which is like an hour long and we have to pay him a dollar..lol.. but he is very in to it.. its just crazy.. he would just scribble and get angry and now hes like a lil scholar im just so happy for him.. and emma oh my goodness she went to school again today and she did not want to leave, she looked at me smiled and walked away in her gait trainer it was so cute.. I would have never thought..
my meds on the other hand does have me awake..I can cry now.. which zoloft would not let me do that.. But I am quite anxious.. my hubby really has got the brunt of it.. everything he does gets on my nerves at times I just want to punch him;; poor guy.. NO i would not do that.. I have had alot of sadness and anger at myself for letting myself get this freakin FAT.. I dont even know how to get it off.. I need lapband or something but I have no insurance.. but I guess I will get it off one day..