oh weary life

how can you make a child understand. that you love him. how can you make him understand that just because he has a disabled sister, that he is not alone. how can you make a child grow up when you have babied and loved him his whole life. how can you turn a angry child back into the loving little boy he once was. how can you unspoil a child when you've done such a good job at it. how can you make him understand that he is your heart.. without letting him run all over you.. how can you take back control, when some how you have lost it.. how can my house function the way i want it to. how can i love my husband when sometimes i feel all alone. how can you go home and visit when you feel like the only fat person in the world. how can you have true friends when you can't fully trust again. how can you be the mom and wife and self when you feel so lost and not in control of your own life.. how can i spend time with my baby without i feel guilty for not with my son. how can i make him feel he is not alone....